2004-05-05 - 3:06 p.m.
My baby brother turns 21 today! It seems like just yesterday I was turning 21 (although, clearly, it was almost five years ago – see that counter on the left?). I don’t know where the last four years of my life have gone. Since I’ve graduated from college, life has just flown by. I’ve held… ummmm… eight different positions with six different companies, some of them concurrent. I’ve been unemployed (well, semi-employed) for six months in the middle of that, and now I’m about to start all over again, basically erasing the last four years of my life experience.I’m freaking out a little.
I guess it’s not fair to say that I’m erasing life experience, because the fact is I wouldn’t be where I am today if I hadn’t done the things I’ve done up to this point. And certainly many of the lessons I’ve learned over the past four years will influence the way I live my life over the next three. It’s just that it’s getting to that breaking point where there’s no turning back. Plus I’m about to start something I have no experience in, with no idea whether or not I will completely suck at it. I sincerely doubt I’ll suck. And as my best friend pointed out the other night, the bar I’m striving for is one that I’ve set for myself. The only pressure I should be feeling is from myself. I mean – let’s face it people – look at some of the people they give RN’s to these days. I honestly don’t think I’ll have a problem.
But enough about me. I’m sure you’ll get your fill of my school/career angst over the next two and a half years – starting in just FIVE WEEKS!!!
The more important topic right now is Brendan, though. 21!!! HOLY CRAP. He’s the youngest of the cousins on my mom’s side, and it’s pretty cool to think that now we can all go out together (not that we didn’t before – just now we don’t have to worry about silly little things like fake id’s). We got a room at the Biltmore down in Providence, and my brothers and B’s best friend Dan are picking me up in the city in about an hour, and we’re all going down to show the kid a good time. I, knowing that tonight could be a long night, took tomorrow off of work. How’s that for thinking ahead?! Anyway, I’m totally excited for tonight. I always love hanging out with Brendan, and tonight is the last major age milestone until thirty, so we have to do it right. Hopefully I’ll have some funny stories to share on Friday. Happy Birthday Brendan!
