2004-10-12 - 10:32 p.m.
This horoscope actually made me cry.You may find yourself gravitating towards solid, grounded things, PHOEBE, in hopes that these things will provide you with the stability that you lack. A key word for you today is patience. Learn how to wait without becoming restless or grumpy. What you will discover after a while is that the stability you seek is actually sitting right there inside of you.
Let me just tell you, people, I feel anything but stable right now. I don't trust myself that much. Such a fucking roller coaster.
Jason, I am not -- let me repeat -- am NOT mad at you. I'm hurting, and I'm sad. It's a very selfish thing I'm going through right now, and it has nothing to do with you. Please don't think that I am in any way angry at you. I am, emphatically, not mad at you. I am, on the other hand, mad at myself. And this is something that I can't seem to fix at the moment, try as I may. That's all I can say right now. I've been crying all night, and I can't seem to stop. I wish I could, I just don't know how. Somebody please give me a hug -- I'm just finding it impossible to cope right now...
