My horoscope has been very interesting this week. It's almost being too nice to me, espcially considering how crappy August and September were to me... Consider Sunday's:

Thinking about moving in with someone, getting married, or taking that giant step toward intimacy? Well, there's no time like the present to do just that. All the lights are green. Go for it.

Ahem. What?! Do they know something I don't? Actually, that "giant step toward intimacy" line was pretty much right on... Then there's Tuesday's:

As the love energy gets turned up to high, you may almost feel a bit overwhelmed. Ease into the next few glorious days by concocting a sweet plan of action. Tonight, you spend time searching for or remembering romance and tender companionship. When you enter a room, things begin to happen. See what you can do to make things work out the way you want. Some decisions take more time. And sometimes it's best to act on impulse.

And then there was today's:

Your agenda for the evening -- and possibly the day -- will include yet more warm hugs, laughter and good feelings. Yes, again. Oh, admit it. You're tired, but you're loving it. The stars give you a clear line of sight down a row of perfectly ordered priorities. Let your feet move you along in perfect time to the music. For once, your inner voices are in agreement. There's something here that will appeal to each facet of your personality. You're a great public relations figure and an ideal romantic partner. Whether you're facing a crowd or going one-on-one, you're delightful company in any setting. Everything that happens is all about you. No, it's not your ego that's gone out control, it's your charisma -- people will fall all over themselves to get closer.

Laughter? Check. Good feelings? Check. Warm hugs? Not so much -- he's in Kansas City. Tired? Hell, yes, but absolutely loving it. And tomorrow's:

You don't have to have all the answers now. You'll figure it out as you go along. You're used to getting your way and today is no exception. Is there no end to what you can get other people to do for you? The stars make you irresistibly persuasive. Charm takes over where reason leaves off. You have the ability and the will to shape events, but be careful. This is an awesome opportunity, and it isn't meant for just anybody. With all this power in your hands, make sure that your motives are pure. Start a whole slew of stuff in the romantic realm. The time's right for initiating all sorts of new contact -- and you can worry about finishing what you begin later.

The stars really like me right now, and I'm certainly not complaining. Unfortunately, I'm going to have to wait until Saturday to start that whole slew of stuff in the romantic realm. But I certainly have plans already... I just can't wait to get this week over with and get on with my weekend.

My head has been swimming a little over the past week, partly due to my evening with Jason last Wednesday, partly due to our encounter Saturday, partly due to some conversations I've had with the new boy. I keep having these flashes of feelings -- sadness, anger, glee, hurt, gratitude -- they run the whole spectrum of emotion. I'm kind of having some trouble sorting them out. Basically, so far I've just been letting them come and go, not judging them (or myself), and not trying to make sense of them, and that seems to be going alright. I guess I'm realizing a lot of new things about myself, about parts of me that I lost touch with over the last four years. I'm realizing I was shutting out parts of me that were extremely important, and I'm really coming to terms with how much that affected me. [Um, if you're related to me, you can stop reading now -- there's nothing good beyond this point. Seriously.]